October 9, 2010: Back in the day, when I was young, I'm not a kid anymore , but some days, I sit and wish I was a kid again.

Location: Newport News, Virginia

Time: 10:00 p.m.

Description: The other day, I sat and looked at some old pictures of my family. I came across this one, and it got me to thinking about my grandfather. He's still in the hospital, but last time I visited him, I shot video, talked to him, and my Grandma, and spent precious time with him. You ever wish that you could go back in time, before the real drama in your family unfolded? Not saying that has anything to do with him. I just looked at this picture and remember not having a care in the world in terms of who's mad at who, who isn't gonna do what and things of that sort. When I look at his face, it all comes back to me. I guess that's what I'm going through, now. Too much going through my head. God, I'm undone. Nothing but prayer can repair me. I'm usually a cheery person, if you know me, but the way things in my life are unfolding, I can do nothing but cry. Keep me in your prayers. You may see a smile on my face, but a little part of me is dying inside.